Fat To Fit Blog I

Weight Loss Goal: 35lbs


Starting Weight: 189.lbs (13st 7.5lbs)


Current Weight: 186.75lbs (13st 4.75 lbs)


Current Weight Loss to Go: 32.25lbs


Goal Weight: 154lbs (11st)


Thought I'd give blogging a go since I've started a diet and exercise regime that makes it sound awful, I hate the word diet since it has "die" in it it doesn't make you feel very optimistic so I'm going to call it a lifestyle change. Its week three of my diet I should have started this sooner but better late than never. I'm going to document all the ups and downs of trying to change your lifestyle, lose weight and become a better version of yourself.


I would say I'm confident in who I am and what I look like I wouldn't want to change the way I look because it's me, I'm unique no one on the planet looks the same way I do so its a special thing but I can't argue my weight or my waistline is healthy. I have healthy self image of everything except my increasing waistline.


I've had issues with my weight for years at my lightest of I was 119lbs when I was 16/17, I looked terrible and gaunt even though it was healthy for my size it wasn't healthy for me. I lost my boobs as I like to call it it was like looking at fried eggs on a doornail so there is no way I'm going back to that and at my biggest I was 190lbs, there is a 70lb difference there in just a few years so it can creep on very slowly like a disease of comforting junk food, relationships and alcohol. I couldn't argue I look my best at 190lbs and my self confidence was starting to slip so I thought it's time to admit it to the world "I'm a fat girl" You'll hear cries of "you're not fat, you're gorgeous" medically speaking I'm in the obese weight range and if my waist got any larger I'd be at risk for diabetes, so compliments don't really help they just make you think you should stay the same.


 I know I will be loved at whatever weight I am by my friends whether i'm 100lbs or 300lbs they will still love me. But I've got to love me and right now I'm not feeling this girl staring back at me, with a double chin developing, stretchmarks across my stomach, legs, arms, hips i'm not a pretty sight naked right now! if you were a quido you'd think I was a grenade! (jersey shore reference) not my proudest sentence in this blog but it explains my feelings pretty well. And I'm being honest here I know it only gets worse. I've gained 70lbs in 4 years! if I let this carry on I'll easily be 260lbs (18st 8lbs) by the time I'm 25 and I don't want that for myself I want to enjoy my 20s, party, wear short skirts and dresses and not feel self conscious about my body. I feel that my weight is holding me back and it's changing my personality and my clothing choices, before I'd think nothing of having to put on a bikini or a short skirt but now my thinking is if I wear skirts my thighs will rub together and become inflamed and it'll be too painful to walk, atm I'm at the point of having to wear tights or leggings just to stop that. It's getting close to the point that it's easier to waddle up the street rather than strut! My confidence when I'm out is gone, I wanna cover up, be nice to everyone so they don't point out my size so I'm known as Laura, the nice girl, the funny girl, the crazy girl just because I can't stand to think that people would be going "do you know Laura, the fat girl?"


This has been a lot of rambling it's a first blog I need to get it out there and why I'm on this journey. I want to lose weight and reclaim myself. I'm smart enough to know I'll never be a size 6, 8 or 10 for that matter. I'm a curvy girl, I have hips, I have tits, I have shapely legs and that's not going to change. I wouldn't want it to, being curvy is sexy to me, being fat isn't. So I have vowed to lose 35lbs not sure by what date hopefully by the end of this year! At the moment I'm at week 3 and I have lost 2.75lbs so far it's a start but I'm going to keep eating healthy, exercising and keeping my eyes on the prize, to look at a sexy curvy girl in the mirror who is proud of her shape, what she has accomplished and who she is.