Well today was fun, busy rushed off my feet at work and the had to go to the dentist to get a filling done, as well as getting a wisdom tooth pulled on friday! You'd think the pain would stop me eating but it's comforting as long as I chew on the one side. Not been too bad today :) Ended up crying on the bus this morning, that was unsettling. At the moment I just feel a bit emotionally drained, back at work and I just kept repeating the same thoughts 'I'm fat, I'm bloated, I'm tired, I'm ugly, My teeth are hideous, My teeth are disgusting'. I managed to stop myself I had a cigarette, made myself and everyone at work a cup of tea which was much appreciated and I felt better. It's alright to have those low moments and to be honest I indulge in the moments I do cry because I rarely do anymore. I just let everything wash over me or go straight through me so it's nice to feel for once. Hopefully I can have a good week and lose a 1lb (or 2 if I'm lucky!) I've mainly got to work on having better self esteem and not thinking I'm hideous all the time :)
Food
1 bagel with low fat spread
2 pieces of gluten free bread, 2 slices of chicken, 1 cherry tomato and salad sandwich
1 banana
1 forest fruit biscuit
1 celery stick with 5g of jalapeno and red pepper hummus
2 pieces of marinated cod, roasted butternut squash, yellow pepper, cherry tomatoes and mediterrean cous cous
1 30g bowl of cornflakes
6 chicken dippers and two potato waffles (I felt terrible, stupid period pain drives me to food!)
Exercise
None - No gym but that's due to the filling, don't want it to fall out on me!
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