Today I have been on my diet for 30 days which is a bit mad to think about, I think its the longest I've ever been on a diet for generally at this point I have given up and gone back to my old junk loving/sofa junkie ways. Right now I'm going to be honest it's tempting, I would still kill to have a whole pizza or eat KFC but I know I want to be slimmer more so I have to stick with it, even the motivation has started to dip. I keep envisioning this slimmer Laura but it still seems far away with 25lbs to lose. I know I'll get there but its easier to live as a fat girl than it is as a healthy girl.
Its been 30 days of living in gym gear, no make up and eating healthily. I really miss getting dressed up for nights out but alcohol has gone out the window with this diet so i'm feeling pretty unglamorous and plain. So tomorrow I'm having a weight watchers lunch with Vicki and Pearlie and have vowed to put on a dress and do my makeup to feel pretty even though I'm only going to Vicki's house and they are my best friends. I need it as motivation, because while you're losing weight its really easy to not feel pretty even though you're getting slimmer as you never seem to have time to look good but tomorrow I'm making the effort!
While I'm on the topic of motivation dipping in general I thought I'd follow the general advice of weight loss websites, books, dvds etc and write down my weight loss goals/aspirations which I haven't really clearly defined. My only goal has been to not be fat which is a bit too general to feel motivational.
10 motivational goals/aspirations
1. To go back to university in September a slimmer and more confident person
2. To be a size 12-14 rather than 16-18
3. To feel comfortable about my body in underwear
4. To be a smaller bra size, 32E would be ideal.
5. For my waist size to be 28-29 inches, believe it or not I have a naturally slim waist and back! its been awhile since its been that size though.
6. To buy size 14 hipster jeans and feel sexy in them, part of the reason I never wear jeans is because they make me feel fat, you can't have muffin tops/buddha belly in a flowing dress.
7. To have a defined jawline and décolletage again, I'll be glad to get rid of my double chin and lack of collarbone definition.
8. To wear the size 14 leather/suede mini skirt I bought from new look last year, I have never worn it because when I bought it I was slightly too big for it when I bought it and planned to diet to fit in and never got round to it, on a night out and feel confident that I fit in it.
9. To fit comfortably in my denim shorts for fresher's week, since I loved wearing them last year during freshers.
10. To not be classed as an obese woman again, I can deal with being overweight according to BMI as I'm a curvy girl but I will not be obese!
No matter what my weight ends up as if I reach these goals by the end of this year I'll be happy :)
Anyone trying to lose weight at the moment I really recommend writing this list, it's really helped to define why I'm doing this, not just for the generic "I want to healthier" "I want to be slimmer" goals. Think of that outfit you want to wear or specific things about your body you want to change but make sure its realistic. In my head I would love to have 32C boobs but that's never going to happen as that's not my natural shape. Or the goal of I want a washboard stomach, I'd love a perfectly flat and toned stomach and bear my midriff in public knowing I look good, but to have that kind of stomach is a hell of a lot of work and you may never be happy with the result.
Pick things you know you can achieve if you work hard at it but don't pick the impossible, learn to accept your natural shape, I'm not a slim girl I never will be but I know I can be sexy hourglass and I'm happy about that :)
Hi, I am from the UK also, dieting, but mine is abit different i found out i was Ceoliac 5 half weeks ago, so my diet i have to cut out all forms of gluten/wheat, i also had an allergy test done, and i have now to cut out more diet type foods, so dieting is hard, i love the list you did, i shall be doing one too, love the background although all i could eat on that would be the salad LOL, and maybe the plate! 10lb in a month is brilliant, keep it going xx
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